It’s been a little while since Sheila’s latest death on The Bold and the Beautiful, but the show’s finally gotten to putting her to rest with all three of her mourners. Well, two. Hope was just there to offer support. Actually, maybe one and a half. Finn’s not entirely sure what he’s feeling right now. Deacon, though, he’s definitely mourning Sheila’s death!
Against all odds, he fell in love with the sociopath. And it seemed, at the time, that she loved him too. So much so that he’s still convinced she turned her life around. Clearly, he’s struggling right now — so much so that tomorrow’s Bold & Beautiful spoilers have him following Sheila’s body to the crematorium.
That may seem to be pretty final and possibly even healing, but it could be just about the worst thing Deacon could do if is mental state is starting to fray right now.
“I think there’s a part of him that’s kind of broken,” Kanan admitted, adding that “it remains to be seen how he’s actually going to cope with it.” Deacon hasn’t been shy in telling everyone that he really, truly loved Sheila, but, “everyone thinks he’s crazy and he’s starting to doubt his own sanity a little bit.”
And losing touch with your sanity — especially when it comes to Sheila who, herself, often had a very tenuous grip on reality — can be a slippery slope. If his life is crumbling, he’s questioning his own sanity and he’s still trying to figure out how to cope, that could make Deacon extremely vulnerable. Maybe it would even be enough to really start to go crazy. Or so he’d think.
Because what if, after he accompanies Sheila’s body to cremation and even stays to see the deed done, he starts seeing Sheila in different places? Maybe he’d be certain he’s seen her in disguise, maybe as herself. He’d catch flashes in the crowd, someone off in the distance. He’d chase after her, but she’d be gone.
And that’s when he’d really start to question his sanity because she is, after all, dead. He’s seen her body, watched it get cremated and said goodbye. It doesn’t get much more final than that, no matter what Sheila may have pulled off in the past. Maybe he’d start telling people like Hope and they’d stop just thinking he’s crazy and tell him that he is. (Gently, we would hope, in Hope’s case.)
The thing is, we’re all pretty sure this is one big ruse and Sheila’s still out there. But how reliable would Deacon be? Is he seeing her lurking around waiting to make her big comeback and strike at those she hates or is he really, truly cracking up? What if it’s a bit of both?
Deacon’s final goodbye could instead turn out to be the first step in saying hello. For Deacon’s sake, we hope Sheila really is coming back. For everyone else’s, though, it might be better off if it’s all just in his head.
